ANXIETY

I have this coward living inside of me

This cowards been named by society..

as anxiety.

It won't let me sleep, I get no peace, I hardly eat.

I don't know how to grieve or how things use to be 

The future is all you can see when you have anxiety

It knows it has me beat just by letting my breathe

Even when I think I've won, it shows me its just begun

It can dim the brightest sun, and ruin the most fun

I try to shut it off and I think its gone 

but when the hell is in your head, there's no where to run.

So you learn to adjust to your crutch with fake smiles

but that only leaves you walking for a little while

It's like as you get strong it gets more vile

And soon its your whole life style

"Make no eye contact for they see right through"

"You have every reason to trust them but come on, do you?"

"Don't even try you'll fail if you do!"

"Why cant you just get over stuff too!"

"Cant tell him how you really feel, honestly its not big deal"

"Piss him off just for thrills! You can't play with your kids right now your ill!"

It clouds my mind until I can no longer think

It holds my tongue and wont let me speak

I have no choice but to fall to my knees

and beg my God to set me free

They say I need to take this or that or I need to talk to someone

but all I need is peace so my thoughts wont run

I need people to understand I'm not being rude

And don't judge me until its happened to you!

This coward living inside of me that society conveniently calls anxiety

I call it the chains on my spirits society won't set free..

But you can go ahead and call it anxiety.

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